Please tell me I’m not the only one.
I don’t know if it’s the weather, or worrying about Sarah Kate (or Nathan), or just some kind of pre-menopausal (I am now 44!) brain fog, but I’ve been frozen inside for the past several weeks. I sit down to write – something, anything! – and no words come. I’ve written about Sarah Kate’s disastrous fun run, the clinic visit, and the cold, and I’ve welcomed a guest post from Mr. Andi, but it’s been a struggle.
The feeling of being paralyzed isn’t just limited to writing, although writing has suffered the most. I’m going through the homekeeping motions, too. It’s all I can do to force myself to make out a grocery list – and half the work is done before I start because I subscribe to eMeals (not an affiliate link, but if you want to try it at 15% off, email me). I look forward every afternoon to Nathan’s naptime when I can accomplish All The Things, but when it comes I don’t have any idea what I should be doing.
Where is the reset button for my brain?
I’m not depressed. I don’t sleep any more (or less) than I ever have, I had a great time on my two recent girl trips (races, of course!), and I’m not sad at all. I’m tired, but I wouldn’t call it fatigue – it’s more like the thought of my To-Do list makes my brain, well, freeze. Chasing Nathan also makes me tired, but that’s because he is a bundle of ridiculous enthusiasm and energy that would make the Tasmanian Devil beg for mercy. 🙂
Is this ridiculous winter doing a number on anyone else?
I continue to run, just like I always have – I’ve completed three half marathons already this year – but a lot of my running days it’s been cold1, or rainy, or both, so I’ve taken it indoors. It’s better than nothing, but a treadmill with a nearby TV tuned to Fox News just isn’t the same mood-elevator as a paved trail with bay views and sunshine.
We also haven’t been outside much, and I haven’t been taking a lot of photos, which is frustrating. Nathan’s had a persistent rash on his face since before Christmas so it’s a lot of work to “fix” him in post-processing, and Sarah Kate is kind of over the whole mommarazzi thing. I could sneak in some action shots here and there, if they were doing anything outside, but inside is just so … blah.
What about you? Has the winter chill affected your mood or your motivation? Or am I just nuts? 😉